Dispensed, Dispensable, and Lucidity...
Lucidity…I can attest to a serene silence in my head over the past ten days. I'm refreshed, relaxed, and pressure has been reduced. Picture a helium balloon and each day the gas gets weaker, weaker, weaker until the balloon sinks to the floor and looses all the glory it once held. That was what I was feeling for a spell (my energy was the helium), and it doesn't happen often. I was undertaken with reading posts, articles, shares, likeability (which I often discover I don't always fare well with) until my internet presence had fallen from the face of the blue nowhere (a vast gloomy place that is the internet). My mind was better for it, I was lucid and my ten day break had helped my mental status.
In 2018 I became a minimalist, not owning as much stuff, and dispensed goods by donating, selling and divvied them up among our adult children. Recently I landed some work for a company and some of my writing has suffered from that commitment. Not-so-fondly, I remember the days when companies always held employees by the nut sack, and I wasn't an exception, my nuts are sagging due to the hold each greedy corporation had on me.
I was dispensable, like everyone else. So ten days ago, I have scaled back my use of the internet and feel better for it. In that time with a clear head, I realized that I'm done being disposed of like garbage and have reversed my role in this life. It's time to take life not so seriously and enjoy it. I've come to the realization that I can dispose of negative things and get rid of possessions, instead of being discarded. And that, my friends, is what I'm doing. I will moderate, focus on me and writing, and will grow from it. Take from this what you will, but if you follow the lead, you too will be better for it. Know that if my presence on the socials is scant, that I haven't given up, but merely took a break. Thanks for understanding, and thanks for reading.
Tim Eagle is an author who lives full time, on the road, with his wife, Maria and their dog, Cocoa. He grew up in Michigan and is inspired by the dysfunction, insanity, and nepotism of rural America. His most current novella, Krae and The Vasectomus Trilogy are both available in e-Book and print. Find Tim Eagle at timeaglefiction.com or here on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Tim-Eagle/e/B004JOB5OS and on godless: https://godless.com/collections/vendors?q=Tim%20Eagle If you liked reading this, sign up on timeaglefiction.com and get alerted whenever something new is posted!